Becoming a new mother and PCOS management has been difficult to say the least.
I find myself close to my biggest weight once again and needing a change.
When I started this journey I weighed 210 lbs. Now, starting over, I am once again creeping close to the 200lb mark. WHY you may ask?
Simply put, I forgot one of the first lesons to success in this journey ... to put yourself FIRST, not last. You can't take care of others if you are unhealthy. This is something that after Evan arrived, I forgot. It is easy to forget with a little one around that requires your constant supervision, attention, and love. Babies need you for everything, from poopy diapers to feedings, to simply rocking them to sleep. No one has shown me that level of attention since I was a baby myself.
In addition to my son, I made my second pirority my husband and nurturing our relationship through this change in our life, making sure that his needs don't fall to the wayside. We are still madly in love and I am overjoyed to have my best friend there to help raise our son. <3
My third priorty has been to keep the house clean, something that if it falls to the side would be a nightmare quite quickly.
I think somewhere along the way, I was not just last, I was not on the list at all. When I have thought of myself, it was being able to step away to wash my hair or do my makeup ... perhaps eat a meal when the baby was asleep. The problem was, what I was eating when I was "grabbing a meal".
At first when Evan was new, my father came over for at least two weeks and prepared all of my meals for me. I greatly appreciated his help, his selflessness, and abundant love. However, the food he prepared was not even close to the kind of food required by my condition, and boy was I spoiled. Even now, I think those two weeks inhibited my breast-milk production, however, I could have turned it all around on that third week, but didn't.
Now it's time for a change once again!!!!
This past week, I have been waking up to a freshly prepared protein smoothie filled with green leafy goodness and berries, and a scoop of protein powder of course. I was so tired, I could barely get up in the morning, and after just one week, I have more energy than I know what to do with. It is amazing how when I put myself FIRST instead of LAST I am able to focus more clearly on everything else on my list and be a better mother, wife, and daughter. I can't believe I forgot that. How easy it is to slip. My journey starts once again, almost from the beginning it seems. But this time, I go into it with all of the knowledge it took years to acquire.
